Feb. 24th, 2006 11:00 pm
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I don't know whats wrong with me, I've just got back from the opening of the play that I directed all bar one scene of and it was a total sucess. So why do I feel like sobbing my eyes out, crawling into bed and never facing the world again?

Well I kind of know why but in a way I have no right to feel this way, but it was kinda like after we finished perfoming it and we had the whole group discussion with the other groups and it just got to me. Everyone was raving over the actors and how amazing they were, nobody mentioned how well it was thought out or how the stage had been set well. They were all like 'I like how so and so moved like this and did that. They acted very well' nobody appreciated that I'd taken hours figuring out every single move in minute detail to make sure that it looked right or that the actors didn't block each other, nooo the actors did it all by themselves apparently. Then just to top it off the head Drama director of our whole theatre group started mentioning how weel the person who had directed one scene had done and how wonderful their idea's had been, before reprimanding me for something I didn't do. We have the assesed performance on March the 18th but I have half a mind to refuse to give them the notes that I made and to tell them to go stuff it since they apparently are doing such a great job without me.

Then we've got this play in the day thing tomorrow which is where you turn up in the morning, you are given the name of a play and during the day you write, direct and act the play before performing it in the evening. I was really looking foward to it but now I don't even know if I can be bothered to go if they are all gonna ignore my efforts again.

College is already un-nessisarily stressful, on average I am getting half and hours sleep a night and I have this over-whelming urge to kill somebody. Why can't life ever just run smoothly for once? Why do I have to have an overload of hormones that I swear makes me far to emotional to be normal. And why the hell do I have to be an insomniac.

Once again one of my mini-rants on how crap life is. I promise to bounce back again, I've gotta.


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