I am actually sipping from a cup of nice relaxing tea.
I guess in my heart I kind of knew that it wasn't really going to go well. I am really a very cynical person and have very little faith in human nature in general. Occasionally you are able to meet someone who proves you wrong...at the moment I know a couple and it makes me feel slightly better. However I think I want to be able to trust people which has the measure of making me slightly gullible as I so desperatly want to believe that people really do need the help and support I'm offering, rather than simply using me. Its been a hard lesson to learn.
Yes looking back I hope that what I said to that guy did kind of kick some sense into him. So what if i was harsh, its prob. what he needed. Lol yes the player...well he's stopped hassiling me and resorted to giving me a few odd looks but in general he's been alot quieter than he used to be and several people have commented on it. With my friend I have just totally given up, I cannot be bothered. Yes it hurts but I will get over it an realise that I wasn't really ever her friend.
As for them in general. I am moving on and sticking to my five close friends who (even though there weren't there through the worst of it) have stuck by me since, been there when I needed them etc Other than that I really can't be bothered. It also felt great to get out all my built up anger.
Actually after reading this I did call up Matt and we chatted and it turns out he's got a bakers day tomorrow which means he's not in school and I only have one lesson so we're meeting up, his moms gonna drop him off and I'm gonna take him out and spoil him. Also to make myself feel better I've re-read the first Harry Potter, I've talked about the soothing qualities that book has on me before in a previous post. Thank you very much and you are a good nut too.
*drinks deeply*
I guess in my heart I kind of knew that it wasn't really going to go well. I am really a very cynical person and have very little faith in human nature in general. Occasionally you are able to meet someone who proves you wrong...at the moment I know a couple and it makes me feel slightly better. However I think I want to be able to trust people which has the measure of making me slightly gullible as I so desperatly want to believe that people really do need the help and support I'm offering, rather than simply using me. Its been a hard lesson to learn.
Yes looking back I hope that what I said to that guy did kind of kick some sense into him. So what if i was harsh, its prob. what he needed. Lol yes the player...well he's stopped hassiling me and resorted to giving me a few odd looks but in general he's been alot quieter than he used to be and several people have commented on it. With my friend I have just totally given up, I cannot be bothered. Yes it hurts but I will get over it an realise that I wasn't really ever her friend.
As for them in general. I am moving on and sticking to my five close friends who (even though there weren't there through the worst of it) have stuck by me since, been there when I needed them etc Other than that I really can't be bothered. It also felt great to get out all my built up anger.
Actually after reading this I did call up Matt and we chatted and it turns out he's got a bakers day tomorrow which means he's not in school and I only have one lesson so we're meeting up, his moms gonna drop him off and I'm gonna take him out and spoil him. Also to make myself feel better I've re-read the first Harry Potter, I've talked about the soothing qualities that book has on me before in a previous post. Thank you very much and you are a good nut too.