No, I actually enjoyed all of that. It was worthy of a post in of itself. I felt what you were typing out and had an urge to reach through an impossible gap of time to fix things. Hmph, just like my dreams trying to help people even if I'm not sure how. That whole thing was awful, I can understand how you felt. I'm impressed that you are starting to turn it around. I really wonder why they did give you such a low mark.
11/12, I am told is a CRITICAL age of creative devolopment, it's the do or die age when the youth begins to fade and the inner critique becomes more developed. Many kids will back away from a creative talent at that age if it is not encouraged to flourish. I really didn't have anything else to do and the compulsions wouldn't stop, so I kept right on doing it. It took an entire huge depression from life in general and frustration at how 'impractical' the skill was (read: not making money) at a time when I was thinking about what the heck I was going to do with myself, concerned that though I'd had fun it didn't really turn into anything. Now...I think the fun is the main point. I may not be able to beat my thing. I may end up the sole care-taker of my aging mother. What can I do? I can be grateful for talents and skills that not only amuse me, but apparently others. I may not make a big splash, but I suppose it is something that is always worth cherishing and developing, even if only slowly.
I'm with you, LJ was a big find for me.
You are always free to share such anticdotes. I know I've poured my guts out many a time.
Woah. THAT dancing sounds quite the challenge. Can't they just have you moonwalk? *winks*
Donkey & Dragon - I forgot about that!!
No, I actually enjoyed all of that. It was worthy of a post in of itself. I felt what you were typing out and had an urge to reach through an impossible gap of time to fix things. Hmph, just like my dreams trying to help people even if I'm not sure how. That whole thing was awful, I can understand how you felt. I'm impressed that you are starting to turn it around. I really wonder why they did give you such a low mark.
11/12, I am told is a CRITICAL age of creative devolopment, it's the do or die age when the youth begins to fade and the inner critique becomes more developed. Many kids will back away from a creative talent at that age if it is not encouraged to flourish. I really didn't have anything else to do and the compulsions wouldn't stop, so I kept right on doing it. It took an entire huge depression from life in general and frustration at how 'impractical' the skill was (read: not making money) at a time when I was thinking about what the heck I was going to do with myself, concerned that though I'd had fun it didn't really turn into anything. Now...I think the fun is the main point. I may not be able to beat my thing. I may end up the sole care-taker of my aging mother. What can I do? I can be grateful for talents and skills that not only amuse me, but apparently others. I may not make a big splash, but I suppose it is something that is always worth cherishing and developing, even if only slowly.
I'm with you, LJ was a big find for me.
You are always free to share such anticdotes. I know I've poured my guts out many a time.
Woah. THAT dancing sounds quite the challenge. Can't they just have you moonwalk? *winks*